There's no use crying over spilt milk.

Hello there. LOL. Still haven't post about D-Code part 3 and 4. 
Before that I have some VERY IMPORTANT stuff to tell.
In my post D-Code part 1 I told you guys that 60 students will be chosen to the D-Code bootcamp. Which to be honest, in the first place, I thought that our team will actually make it to the camp. Unfortunately, on the 7th of November, when they announced the finalists, we were not chosen. My heart sank and drowned in the pits of my stomach. I have been waiting for this day for months and this is what I get?! HELL YES, I AM SAD AS HELL. I just finished my piano exam on that day and it was such a relief getting that big bloody burden off my poor shoulders and this shit just ripped my shoulders out, literally. I just went through a roller coaster of emotions. At one point I was the happiest person in the world, then this thing came in my way. Of course I am not blaming them for not choosing us. Of course they will choose the best to attend the camp. C'mon lah. This is not some belacan camp, okay.
I have been thinking that some miracle will happen for the past week. Like them suddenly calling us to the bootcamp. But unfortunately, no. I have been so moody these few days. I have been imagining the scene of the bootcamp for days. How it would be, who would be there, etc. 
When i told sir Nizam about this, he was telling me that he thought we would be able to make it. That was the part. I stood there and I thought "He actually had such high hopes on us and we just broke it". Seriously, I thought we would make it too. And when he asked me, "what do you think we should do then?" I said, "Sir, there's nothing we can do. Redha je lah.." hahah! :D
Recently, they just posted the pictures of the bootcamp on facebook. And yes, the jealousy just added up even more! :( I was already so damn jealous of them getting to go. And the pictures! OHMYGOD D: So, being my typical self, I was groaning and doing all sorts of stupid noises. And my sister was saying "There's no use crying over spilt milk". And I was going all bizzare over it. But after that I was thinking. C'mon. Of course I will cry over spilt milk. WHAT IS THERE TO NOT CRY. What if the milk was my only food? What if the milk was my only source of income? What if the milk was needed to feed some poor children? What if my mother was gonna scold me for spilling the milk? HELL TO THE YES I WOULD CRY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I know it is no use, but I still need to cry. To let my feelings out. To let everything be okay. To express the sadness that has been trapped. To express how desperate I am and how much I miss the camp and the amazing people.
I know. Maybe it's just luck? But I think mostly, our web page too. I keep telling myself. It's okay that we are not chosen. It's okay, maybe the competition was just too intense and we didn't make it. It's okay, there are people who are definitely better than us. It's okay, they deserve the best. It's okay, I'm so damn chill with this. It's okay, I'm not jealous.
But the truth is, hell no, I'm not happy with all of this. I'm not so damn chill with this shit. And hell yes, I'm jealous as fuck. But again, I think, maybe God has something better in store for me. Maybe like PASSING MY PIANO EXAM?! That would be great! :D
I like looking on to the positive sides of things. But this, no, it's really hard for me to see the positiveness in this. I can only come up with the point that maybe God has something better for me. Other than that, no.
Anyways, what's over is already over. There's really nothing much I can do. As I said earlier, redha je lah.
Okay then, I think that's it. Goodbye. Until then! Hasta luego, amigos! :) Te amo!

A screenshot I took with my phone and I think it suits this post really well :)

Life .

Hello, there! :)
Just felt like blogging. Idk what to say tho.
How are you guys? I'm doing really good! I've just got my PMR results like a few days ago. And I've got Straight A's! Yeay! The thing that made me worried throughout this whole year finally fruited with a success. Thank God. I still feel that I got straight A's out of luck. I just felt like I haven't work hard enough to deserve this. I felt like I worked even harder for my UPSR compared to this. Anyways, it's alright. I've got straight A's and I should be happy for it! I've made my parents, auntie, and sisters proud and happy! I'm getting a guitar! :) And I'm very excited! :D To all my other friends that did not manage to get straight A's, it's okay, guys. Do not give up. If people look down on you for not getting straight A's, prove them wrong! I enjoy proving people wrong. That's the thing that pushes me and keeps me going. I do not like people looking down on me. The more they insult or talk bad about me, the more motivated I am to prove them wrong. And the more motivated I am to work harder. Therefore, never give up and it's time to prove people wrong! Never let people look down on you. Strive for the upcoming exams, then! :) I would like to share a little something with you. That is, all this time, my parents never pressure me. They do not yell or shout or keep on nagging on me to get straight A's. I know that they do want me to get straight A's. But they just never nag too much or talk too much about it. They just don't give me stress. I like it that way. So, all this time, I was the one giving myself stress. I was the one who kept on motivating myself. I was the one all along. I always wanted my parents to be happy and proud with me and what I have achieved. And this year has been a really productive year for me! I've passed my theory grade 6, my practical grade 6, and got straight A's in my PMR! 
Btw, I can't believe I'm gonna start my form 4 in like about a week or so. I'm so lazy. So lazy to go to school. So lazy to study. So lazy to read. So lazy to write. and most importantly, so damn lazy to use my rusted brainzzzz =_= Oh, God, please, save meee. I do not want to learn new subjects. I don't want stress. I hate stress :( But sometimes, a little stress is good tho :\ And I'm gonna end my high school life in like 2 years. I do not wish to take form 6 as I do not wanna stay in school anymore. I want to go into college life. I would want to maybe do a twinning program in university. So that I can go to other countries and experience the outside world. I love gaining new experiences and taking risks. I love going on adventures. Therefore, I wish to get into a twinning program in uni so that I get to go to different countries and experience their culture! Most preferably, America, UK, Ireland or something like that! :)
I think that's about it. 
Talk to you guys soon! 
Byebye, and Happy Christmas and have a Merry Holiday! Aha :) x

All I want for Christmas is 1D ! Or at least their merchandise! :) x

Appreciate.

Hello there, people.

It has been quite some time :)

Lots of stuff have been happening lately. I mean like events in my life. Firstly, I've finished my PMR! *Yeay :D Okay. That's freakin' outdated cuz PMR finished like a month ago :P

Actually. I'm here posting this post because I feel like some people need to be thankful, put in some effort, and actually realize stuff. To whomever it may concern, this post may be for you. Siapa yang termakan cili, terasa pedasnya.

This thing has been in my head for like a few months already. I am so fed up with it, telling it to only one person wouldn't help. I would love to share this with the whole world. Inspire people and stuff. I love inspiring people. It makes me feel good :)

I didn't know when I realized this but, I just realized it. There's this little friendship that we've taken care of for quite some time. Days went by really happily and nice. I wasn't thinking much that time. I just did what came to me. Nothing else. I wasn't thinking much like "Oh. What an awesome friendship I'm having" Not much. Trust me, not as much as I'm thinking right now. Everything was nice. Days just passed really quickly. As people always say, good times passes quickly when you're having fun. I was actually really happy and all at that time. I'm not trying to say that I'm not happy and stuff now. But, it's just different.

It's like we are the ones who keeps on putting in effort in talking and going out and stuff. And it's like "yeah. sure. whatever" I'm so fed up of everything.

Sometimes, I think a lot. Like where has this friendship been, what's wrong and all, why this, why that, what have I done, what have you done. At last, I realized that I haven't done anything and hopefully, never will. I don't mean like we're not friends now and neither do I mean that we're enemies now or whatsoever. I only think that we're not as close as how we used to be last time. I loved all the times all of us used to have. Laughing, talking, studying together and stuff. Sometimes, when I over-think, I'll just tell myself to be thankful of everything I have now. Don't think too much. Appreciate that there's a roof above my head, appreciate that I have food to eat, appreciate that I am capable of doing a lot of things and also, appreciate my friends and family. And there's only one person to thank all of that to- God. I would just be like thank God for all of these amazing things that happened in my life giving my lots of experience. Meeting new people. Being able to wake up in the morning is also another blessing. Being able to have food in front of me is also another blessing.

This is not only to whomever it may concern. It can be for whoever it is. I'm just telling to you that you should appreciate everything in front of you while you have it. Just appreciate and be thankful. Cherish everything you have :)

That's it :) 

Till the next post. See youu :) :* 

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P/S: I am now a part of the MILLIONS of DIRECTIONERS' FAMILY! Woohooooooo! :D

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